James

ENGLAND, UK

Japanes Koi Pond (Art)

1958 I was born into a politically social family, where secrets were in every closet of our home. Affairs were being held between Grandfather, Father and Mother, in my family this was known to be normal.

My first secret as I can remember was at the age of 5: both my 3 year old sister and I were taken to a wooded area near our home and sexually abused by a teenager from our neighbourhood; it was a nightmare for us.

Then at a Christmas party with friends of the family I was at the age of 9 taken and gang raped by teens. It seemed to prepare me for what was to come at the age of 11 when my own Father groomed me for rape and a sexual relationship with him until I was 17 years old. No night nor toilet was safe for me.
And that’s when the Japanese Koi pond in our back garden was my safe place to hide from my deep pain. I would clean up, put on my bed clothes and sneak out at night in all weather to sit and cry into the koi pond. It was my peaceful place and I was all alone. I would watch the koi swim in a freedom I could only dream of.

I was able to escape from the abuse into University and during the 1970s and 80s was openly gay, successful in business, at night I escaped into drag to hide in it. I loved the attention, the lovers and partners while watching my friends die one at a time with of AIDS . So I became political in the ERA and early Gay movement where I was told that we are to lie to the press and world that we were born gay and to train the young children that gay was normal. What lies I was told!

March of 1989 on my way to kill myself God met me in the most powerful way in my car and that night at 10:20pm I asked Jesus into my broken soul and He was in the midst of my transformation into the man I am today.


Married to a wonderful woman for nearly 27 years, raised 3 children and helped deliver 5 grandchildren, all while being a Pastor for now 30 years.

Yes, I’m swimming free like the Koi in that pond. I’m free as a heterosexual and I’m walking hand in hand with my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, no turning back, no turning! God my Father is faithful and loving to me and in whom I trust and obey! I’m free and love the real peace I have today.

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Bouquet for my Bride

Statement – This painting is the second part to ‘My Beloved’. A vision shared to me by a member of the Ministry team at a Christian Healing weekend.  She had a vision of Jesus presenting me with a bouquet of flowers.

I never used to like flowers, I thought they were ‘girly’ and if anyone gave you them it was because they had done something wrong or had an ulterior motive.

Since rekindling my deep love for Jesus, I am secure and happy in knowing I am His Bride. He is my beloved and I am His beloved forever, waiting for His return.  I now love flowers and appreciate the beauty of His wonderful creation.

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