Journal Entry – August 5th 2021

August 5, 2021-  God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change Courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

I get it!! I couldn’t control what was happening to me in so many aspects of my life. That’s why I try so hard to control things now. What people do to me, say about me. All my life when I tried to control what was happening to me, I was pushed back down and made to feel shame. When I tried to speak up, I was made to feel shame. I’d walk into a room and people would stop talking. I work so hard to try to have people like me, because I’ve never liked myself. I try to show I’m a worthy person to have as your partner, friend, just to be loved.

I get it now!! I need to like me for me. Give what I can, take what I need and be ok with leaving the rest God grant me the serenity. Oh that piece of mind, that satisfaction in my heart. To accept the things I cannot change my past is behind me, it happened but I don’t have to live there any more, Courage to change the things I can’t myself, how I react, my mindset, that I am enough, worthy, And the wisdom to know the difference.  What to keep and what to leave And that peace of mind knowing either way it will work out.