Encompassing

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” ~ 2 Timothy 1:7

I find this journey I’ve embarked on 4 short months ago to be so all encompassing, touching the very depths of my soul, a part I’ve never let anyone near. I started off with questions about the Bible, church, faith, hope, anxiety and gut wrenching fear. God has brought amazing people into my life to help me on this journey. I’ve shared things that I never thought I could. From the depths of my heart, I’ve asked God to guide me on this journey.

I stepped outside of my box and took a new job. One that I had no clue if I could rise to the challenge. When I was doubting and doubled over in pain, He sent one of His Angels to pray for me leaving as quietly as he arrived.

I’ve learned that there is freedom in surrendering, that it is ok to sometimes show people the real me. And I’ve asked for help in trying to put my broken pieces back together again. In just a short time I will be having a major surgery. One that I’m praying and believing will bring me total healing. For the first time in my life I’m not anxious or fearful. I’m looking forward to what God will do next. I’m looking forward to that all-encompassing healing from head to toe. I told a friend this week that I’m in a place where I’ve never been before, and I have a peace that I’ve never experienced. I don’t know if my job will be there when I am able to work again, but I do know this. God will lead me in the right direction. He knows what that next step will be. He has been with me every step of this journey. I’ve seen it and I’ve most certainly felt it. He has opened doors I never before would have gone through. Each step I have taken has led to the next, then another and then that one has brought me to this very moment. He will not close a door without opening a window. So I choose not to be afraid or anxious because as I’ve said many times I know whose arms I’m resting in.